For So Long.

For so long these fingers have not type the words that mounted bit by bit in her chest for time has not always been her companion and perhaps she could pin a little blame onto lack M U S E. Tragically, lack of muse had and will always be a problem for this fellow owner of these words for it has been nothing but a driving point of disatisfaction.

Always, always and always she rambles on what could be the best way to express her frustration, her fears and her worrisome (albeit not that much of worry) tragic (is this even a right way of expressing it) into words? How could she do that when most of the time, she is swapped by something called duty of life which translates into nothing much but medical school life and little bit of personal problems here and there. Often that smaller pieces when they get together, they form a mountain that immovable being one of its characters. Such analogy could be said for my lack of muse.

It started as "I have devoted my hours to series of lectures and practicals five times as week" to "I have exams coming up, there is no time to write fictions or small strings of words." and now my current reason is that "I am working part-time in 9-5 pace and school is coming up."

Funny how her own busy schedules were put to use as her excuse not being able to write but surely, she had learned it long time ago that tiredness was never a friend to something as boisterious as muse. Though she had episodes of being able to write whilst her eyes were begging to shut.

What could she right about now? The small episodes of her working life? There is nothing much that she could put her fingers on if you are to ask her about it. She could say it is thoroughly better than working at ever-changing pace in a local bookstore chain but certainly, if you ask her if she would like to work in an office environment. She would definitely laugh at you, saying: I'm good, I'm glad I am choosing a path to what it seems to be nothing of an office like though it will drive me lack of sleep and constant stress. There is nothing wrong with it, trust her, but to be a routine for her? It will kill her, routine is a killer for her. However, no denial that this job truly opened her eyes on different scene of working areas and what is more interesting that she learned few Biomedical Equiments out as she read through the products available.

On the other hand, she could not help herself but jive in to the beats of that from TEN of NCT. His SM STATION release is truly a bliss in the ears, despite being released in a Korean entertainment company by default, the lyrics are in English and the genere is somewhat Oriental Trap? She is bad at dictating music genre as she have never had the interest to study music and its subgenre. Dream In A Dream had truly been a visual pleasing and despite the lyrics are just repetitive of "I don't wanna come down from your love" strangely and fascinating enough, the song is so pleasant (Read too: She was just being bias on NCT member and whatmore, it is Ten, the only Thailand member that spent good time in basement until this song came out and NCT LIFE in Chiangmai).  Another music in her ears is that from Winner's REALLY REALLY. Just the right beat, just the right jam to get her body moving during dull hours in the office.

Another additional note: I am watch 13 Reasons Why and I am hooked. So far, to this date, I am on episode four and certainly I want to continue watching it.


What is there more to write? This is certainly had been the longest update that she had written for few years. Certainly, this platform is quite abanadoned by its own writer but she will come back for it from time to time, hopefully, if God Wills. Speaking abandoned, same goes to her Homer's Oddysey in which she will read after this.


*It started of second pov and I just went on with it
*Link to the songs are on the respective titles, do check it out if you want too.
*Work is fun work is good but I'm excited for Year 2.